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September 15, 2010

I went on my old, decrepit myspace account today. I had to sit and think as to what my password was.  Once in, I didn’t even recognize the homepage format anymore.

I only keep it around for these gems.  Its where I ranted and wrote from late high school and the first couple years of college. Its from a self I now barely know or relate to anymore, but she wrote a ton more than I do. A lot more of it artistically as well. I dug this out from the ashes of a place I don’t care to ever return to, but have to still remember.

A student actually found this and messaged me about using it in their English class paper. As an almost anti-English person it was really bizarre, but they sent a second message partially crediting me with their ‘A’. Oh the irony…

I tried to keep the syntax relatively intact. If you want to go treasure hunting into my past internet life here’s the link:


I’m not tired

.                          so quit asking

I’ll always tell you nothing is wrong                         .

because nothing is

.                                                                                                I’m still not tired

I could run forever

But I’ll lie and say I am

so you won’t ask anymore




This isn’t who I really am.

I’m really a lot nicer


…and happier and thinner and funnier


–but I’m not here right now–




Nothing is going wrong.

I have no reason for you


…except I’m not okay.


There’s nothing I can tell you.




So don’t ask.






just come up to me and give me a hug.

(without saying a thing)

tell me you love me and that is enough


To save me from myself…



for another day.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. Rappe permalink
    September 16, 2010 2:31 am

    That’s a side of you I never expected to see. Even from a past you.

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